Letting go....

I'm letting go of this painting...meaning I'm not going to finish it. And as much as it bugs the heck out of me to let it go, I'm doing just that.

Have you ever had to let go? (Don't worry.....I'm going to put this all in perspective.....)

I started this painting Sunday afternoon when I found a small sliver of time to paint. Since I began painting again about 5 months ago, I have been searching for time to fit this creativity that I love dearly into my life, which is no easy task since a I work full time and have a family.

Yesterday I knew I couldn't paint because I had a basketball game to attend after work. I was looking forward to painting today when I got off work, but it's a very busy time of year where I work and I didn't even walk out of there until 6:00 pm tonight. By then it was dark and there was no good light for painting.

And now this painting has been sitting here a couple of days and by this time, the paint is beginning to dry a little and can't be blended easily and worked with.

All this was very frustrating to me....and then I had a little revelation of perspective.

So I had to let go of a painting.

It could be much worse.

I had to let go of a parent to death.

I am letting go of a parent to Alzheimer's.

I let go of my oldest son as he left home and went to college this year.

I have let go of dreams I had that will likely never become reality.

I have let go of my life as I have known it many times to move to totally different places where I know no one.

I am letting go of some things I wish not to discuss on this blog.

I ask you again......Have you ever had to let go?

I don't have answers for what to do when you have to let go of something. Many times it's hard to understand why it's happening to you....like when you lose a parent to death or disease. However, sometimes you let go, like when you leave the familiar to move to the unknown, and you find you make the best of friends that you would never have known otherwise.

I guess it's just a natural part of life. And in light of recent events in our country and this wonderful time of year, I think a little perspective is in order.

So if you find yourself like me at this glorious time of year of the birth of our Savior getting frustrated with things, finding less and less time, having more and more demands and you have to let go of some things, remember to keep it in perspective.